Tuesday, December 4, 2012

A Dream.

On Sunday night,I had the most beautiful dream.

Erik and I were walking together on this sidewalk,and we came upon a bench where lots of children and adults were sitting. We begin to look around,when we spotted our son being held by a woman. Erik lunged for him,and picked him up,and we were overjoyed to meet our perfect prince! Erik passed him to me,and I remember he was wearing a little white hat,tucked securely around his head. I lifted it up,and saw his beautiful red hair. We met our son!

Upon waking,I was sure that it was God assuring us that we were going to get to our son,that we would meet him and hold him,and love him. I thought the dream was set in the orphanage.

I now know that dream will take place when Erik and I enter Heaven.

Friends, we are deeply saddened and grieved to tell you our sweet baby boy was overcome by his medical needs on Sunday,and passed from this life into the arms of Jesus.

I wish I had something profound to say,but I don't. I am in the trenches of grief right now. I can't wrap words around this,it just hurts.

We loved that little boy SO SO SO much already. He had a nursery decorated with a Noah's Ark theme. He had a name,and bottles,pacifiers,blankets set aside just for him. He had 2 sisters who prayed faithfully for him every morning. They talked about all the things they were going to do with him one he got home. And he had a mommy and daddy who already adored him.

I want to make sure I say this last part. I still believe God is GOOD. I still believe He has a perfect plan for us. We will continue to be obedient to His will,even though we know not where we He is taking us on this journey. My faith will not waver.

May our family lay down everything in surrender for His Glory.
















10 comments:

The Braithwaite Family said...

My heart is breaking for you. Sweet baby Oliver will be so deeply missed because he was so completely loved by your family and many others. Please know that we will be praying for you to be comforted in Christ. That the veil will be thin and that you will be able to feel the comforting presence of Oliver in your home and in your hearts.

ginaology said...

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear this. My heart goes out to you all along with specific prayers for comfort. God bless your entire family & yes I agree, even after a loss God still is good. Declan can now spend all the time he wants on Jesus' lap.

The Q family said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I know you are devastated. I am so glad that your sweet boy did not die unloved. He will be remembered and mourned by many. In a place where many die unknown, his story will live on. He may not have made it home, but he made it into your hearts. My family is praying for yours.

Kellan's momma said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my prayers. 'Til you meet him with Jesus,
Christina

Amanda said...

I am so sorry. I will hold you and your family in my heart as I pray.

Laura.lea said...

My heart breaks for you. I will keep your family in my prayers. God is still good. :-)
Lauralea
Romans 8

Fran said...

Lindsay, I'm stopping by from Christa's blog and wanted to tell you I'm deeply saddened by this news, I have no words. Your faith is great comfort and I admire you for that. Love, Fran

Julia said...

I am so so very sorry!! Praying that the Lord of Hosts fills you with a peace that passes all human understanding as you walk through this valley!

Heather said...

Hi I'm Heather! Please email me when you get a chance, I have a question about your blog! LifesABanquet1(at)gmail.com

Lynne O'Leary said...

I am so sorry for your family's loss of your precious baby. I have been seeing your beautiful son's picture and praying for him to find his perfect family. Bless you all.