Friday, June 7, 2013


Forgive me.

I had no idea that I hadn't written for so long. Truth be told, most days I'm happy to hit the pillow at night knowing I fed the children 3 meals and put on clean underwear.

Life is hard right now. I keep coming here to talk about it,but I fear that I will seem like such a negative Nancy. I don't want to just vent and pout,so I've been keeping it close to the vest. It's really hard to figure out what to share vs. what not to share.

Here's what I can tell you:

Adoption is hard. Not just like,hard,but...H-A-R-D.

There are so many things that I just didn't expect.

Despite the fact that I read all the books,took the classes,read blogs,and talked with other adopting mothers.

I am tired.

Insanely tired. I forget who I am on a daily basis. I'm struggling.

All of our children are healthy and well,and for that I am thankful.

Bonding and attachment are going to take longer than I thought.

EVERYTHING is going to take longer than I thought.

This is a season. It might get better. It might not. Only time will tell.

I have never seen Jesus as up close and personal as I have during this time.

I'm not giving up,giving in, or letting go.

Pressing on. 


Gigi said...

You are doing great. You have no idea how proud I am of you.

Anonymous said...

I'm just a lurker here, but it thought you may need to hear that I am praying for you during this difficult time.

Haley said...

Lindsay, as I'm going to pick up our son soon, I cling to anything and everything you have to say. Please continue to be REAL. It's not negative, it's honest. Share whatever you feel comfortable with.

Your sister in Christ,